To Survive, Not Live
Going back to the time where there were no tears
Gonna cloud my thoughts, I'm not gonna live
Got some wounds in my heart, got the death in my eyes
Seeing the life fade from the enemies' eyes
Some try to comprehend it, they don't understand
There's no glory, it's just a glorified game
I know you can't grasp it, but what else can I say
What am I supposed to do when it's taken my life away
Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops
And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have
Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out
My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart
Cause I'm not living
I'm not living
I don't know if I'll ever recover
I don't know if it'll be a day, a month, a year
Gotta hold back the madness no matter how close it gets
If it finally consumes me, it'll be over
Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops
And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have
Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out
My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart
Cause I'm not living
I'm not living
I'm not living
I'm not living
I'm so without hope
I can confront the years and months
All without fear
They can take nothing from me
Maybe I'll survive as a man who isn't living
And maybe I'll discover the whole truth of war
And I'll tell my whole story
To anyone who'll listen
I'm a man who isn't living
I'm a man who isn't living
Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops
And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have
Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out
My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart
Cause I'm not living
(Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops)
I'm not living
(And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have)
I'm not living
(Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out)
I'm not living
(My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart)
Going back to the time where there were no tears
Gonna cloud my thoughts, I'm not gonna live
Going back to the time where there were no tears
Gonna cloud my thoughts, I'm not gonna live
Got some wounds in my heart, got the death in my eyes
Seeing the life fade from the enemies' eyes
Some try to comprehend it, they don't understand
There's no glory, it's just a glorified game
I know you can't grasp it, but what else can I say
What am I supposed to do when it's taken my life away
Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops
And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have
Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out
My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart
Cause I'm not living
I'm not living
I don't know if I'll ever recover
I don't know if it'll be a day, a month, a year
Gotta hold back the madness no matter how close it gets
If it finally consumes me, it'll be over
Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops
And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have
Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out
My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart
Cause I'm not living
I'm not living
I'm not living
I'm not living
I'm so without hope
I can confront the years and months
All without fear
They can take nothing from me
Maybe I'll survive as a man who isn't living
And maybe I'll discover the whole truth of war
And I'll tell my whole story
To anyone who'll listen
I'm a man who isn't living
I'm a man who isn't living
Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops
And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have
Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out
My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart
Cause I'm not living
(Cause if one day I give up and my beating heart stops)
I'm not living
(And the guilt starts to smother all the reasoning I have)
I'm not living
(Thinking the life I had has gone and moved out)
I'm not living
(My eyes skim over the depths of the puncture in my heart)
Going back to the time where there were no tears
Gonna cloud my thoughts, I'm not gonna live